I had a dream one night Someone tells me to go back to school I think to myself, “why should I let a voice in my head tell me what to do?” I decide to get readmitted anyway, thinking that I had nothing to lose Let me do this thing to the best of my ability I’m happy to walk to school everyday with my bad legs (not bad enough for government funds) Things are great in the beginning Everything is new, the people are friendly What am I learning though? I can’t understand my spanish professor I manage to scrape by with an A+, I need a break from spanish Spanish 201 is still required of me, I must take it now before I forget Everything I learned in 101 Dean’s List again. Too bad I don’t care about accolades Math is just numbers, Science is just numbers Psychology (my major) is just theories, information overload A girl gives me a book called “The interpretation of dreams” How did she know? People are still nice, but distant As if they came just to help me and be on their way I notice this too well, but I can’t blow their cover The dreams get worse and worse, I can’t fall to sleep at night Dreams of someone choking me, not being able to breathe I’m forced to take a break from school for awhile Maybe I should have taken that book more seriously Dreams of being choked mean that you are in a situation in which you have trouble expressing yourself No time for anything else but my studies No one will allow me to stare and be silent I get accused of thinking too much Still trying to make sense of that dream? The devil has you paralyzed son Where is your success, where is your money, where is your life Do you offer training here? No you must have less than 30 college credits This place may have something for you, but you may have to lie Yeah right!, I can’t compromise my moral principles Meanwhile dreams are telling me it’s time to settle down Get married and have children. More pressure, more pain How many times do I have to tell myself I’m not in a position for that Am I being harmed by the expectations of my parents How do I escape this place, this box, these games? Stay here and take care of these sick cats a dream says to me I didn’t really have a choice, but ok It’s alright, I saw another rainbow today
Merry Christmas Everybody!